Sunday, April 18, 2004

Theory and Practice; or, how the way I live my life relates to the shit that I post on this blog.

After two years of basically saying 'fuck off' to the world through this blog and through my life style, I've learned something which I think is important.

It is that if you engage in an enterprise such as mine you find, after a while, that your life style actually reflects your ideas quite well; or actually the opposite, that your ideas reflect your lifestyle.

I don't put shit up here that honestly conflicts with how I really feel.

I think the reason that my life and my ideas correspond is that if you really, really, don't care what other people think of what you're doing then there isn't a reason to lie about it. There isn't a reason to give lip service to things and to ways of being which you find false. So life and ideas tend to fall to the same ground.

It's a valuable insight, and one which should be useful to other people.

The question in the radical scene, the perenial question, is how do your ideas relate to real life? Are you just some sort of cloistered intellectual who gets his jollies by writing radical literature but never doing a god damn thing or are you someone who is really out there trying to put a modicum of reality behind your words.

But there again, the order is reversed. You don't 'put a modicum of reality' behind your words you put your words out in a way that reflects the reality of your life, whether you are conscious of it or not.

My life in the real world actually reflects the shifts in my dogma quite well.
A year or so ago I was so disenchanted with the world that I wanted to totally isolate myself from it and pursue the experience of really knowing life on the small scale, knowing a place intimately and developing the sort of relationship with it that comes from intense living isolated from mass media, people, society at large, etc...

Therefore the Agrarian ideas appealed to me. They were saying pretty much what I already agreed on.

Later, I got out of the hole, but I still isolated myself and consciously pursued taking my individualism to new heights, by any means neccesary. This was different from the isolation in that it was consciously about me, not about getting an experience.

At that point a sort of individualist inspired, but non-Stirnerite, anarchism appealed to me an awful lot, the sort of thing believed in by Josiah Warren and Jo Labadie.

Then, I decided to return to society by coming back to school and consciously moving to a place which reflected what I believed in instead of isolating myself and making the world which I believed in on my own.

Consequentially Italian Communist-Individualist Anarchism has been what I've been gravitating towards more and more.

The Italian tradition emphasizes the individual within a communist (small c) setting, which defacto recognizes the rights of society as well as that of the individual, and even locates the purest manifestation of individuality as coming out of a setting where property as a category does not exist any more and the basic unit is the experience of man in a social and class setting as opposed to man isolated or semi-isolated.

I began being interested in this shortly before I left, and as I've become more integrated into the normal world it has grown in relevance and importance to me.

Now, my lifestyle could confidently be described as communist-indivdualist in the way described above.

I don't give a damn about any one or anything but am determined to live my life as I please. And society doesn't really scare me anymore.

So that's the relation of theory to practice in my own life, what about yours now, compadre?

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