Friday, April 09, 2010
Mostly because when you've been fixated on yourself and almost nothing but yourself for long enough it's hard to get back into the groove of reading the news, analyzing it, and spitting out some sort of analysis. Not that there's anything trivial about looking at the news and giving one's opinion, but there is a sort of rhythm of tension building up, then exhausting itself, then building up again, that happens over and over with news cycles so that if you're not keyed into it it's difficult to see what the specific fuss is about. I mean, it's more than just fuss, but there is a part of the cycle that's arbitrary, almost sexual, relating to the way people relate to this stuff. Instead of titillation on screen there's the newest scandal, the newest outrage that people want to get worked up over. The resolutions are almost like orgasms, blowing your mind and exhausting you until the next round starts. The health care bill is a good example of this. So I guess it's hard to get back into the sexual rhythm of news once you've been out of it for a little while focusing on things that seem to be more important than most else. After all, once you're out of the game for a little while it becomes obvious just what parts of it all are in fact the game, and you question whether or not there's really value in it all outside of the game. There is, at least in my opinion, which is why I'm still writing this. There seem to be games played in area after area of life, parts of life where the putative topic is put aside to make way for personal bullshit, but that doesn't invalidate the underlying subject matter itself.
Posted by John Madziarczyk at 6:35 PM
Wednesday, April 07, 2010
I've been on one for about a month and a half and while it appears to have gotten easier it still hasn't gotten easier to the point where the pain has departed. The whole thing started because of my 30th birthday and my realization that whatever period there was of youth that existed before it is now officially over. How exactly does a person learn how to deal with something like that while they've chosen to live life day by day, day in and day out, instead of making actual plans for the future? It's a harsh situation, even though it could no doubt be much, much harsher. So I don't know, I don't know how to do it and how to overcome that which I've been trying to avoid, name it what you will: responsibility? Maturity? Life is long I'm finding out and there aren't easy ways around it.
Posted by John Madziarczyk at 10:05 AM
Thursday, April 01, 2010
Seems that with the health care battle over there's a lull in the activity, not just on this site but on independent news sites on the web in general. Don't know what I can really add to the situation. There's only so many times that you can call out Tea Partiers before it becomes repetitive and boring. But we're still soldiering on here and will no doubt make up more ways to offend soon enough.
Posted by John Madziarczyk at 4:24 PM